I'm Weird

Now, if you've read this blog at all, you'd agree with that. Both myself and umm...whatever he's calling himself, my co-blogger, are weird. But anyway, my sleep schedule is all kinds of screwed up. Last night, I dozed off during Bones sometime between 7:30 and 8pm, waking up at 1:30 am and I've been up since. I have class at 5:30pm tonight, so I'm 50/50 on whether or not I'll take a nap. It'd certainly help, but who knows?

The actual point of this blogging instance though, is two-fold. The first issue is with a female friend of mine who may or may not read this (she did once and mistook the last blog post for mine and flipped out). Either way, we had a very non-committal good friendship which I thought was going somewhere, until she (seemingly) suddenly decided, "Nope, I have feelings for another guy and he's just going to take your spot and I'm going to phase you out." So that hurt, because that just sounds umm...hurtful? I mean, we both agreed that we wanted to stay single, so there was no commitment or relationship for her to violate, but it still hurts. I guess that's what happens when two people have different plans for a relationship.

The second issue is how I deal with this hurt. And that is with "raw rock," also known as the band Showbread and their incredible dual-album, Anorexia Nervosa. Now, really this is two different cds, one titled Anorexia and one titled Nervosa, but the phenomenal pick-me-up that just throwing these on, and the smile I get from sitting here listening to them is something that has so far been unrepeatable (not the word I'm looking for, but I can't find that one). The first time I did this was when there was the issue with the older guy who slept with my sister (he's in prison, bad story, not interesting) and I sat under a desk with a blanket blocking out light and just rocked out for a bit. Today, I tried the desk thing again, but it didn't work so good, so I just drew the blinds and the shades (I have both, yes) and tried to zone the world out. And so far, it's working.

Plans for today: Mowing the lawn, watching 2-3 episodes of Leverage, 1-2 episodes of Dark Blue, going to class, and possibly taking a nap.